Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Getting Personal

One of my New Year's resolutions this year is to update my blog at least once a week. Well, now it's almost Valentines Day and I'm just getting to it... oops! I can start that one now, right?

Why have I neglected my blog? Anxiety. I take medication for that, but apparently it doesn't help everything (don't you wish that there was a magic pill that would just make everything better? I do).

So why do I have this anxiety about my blog? Well, I want to do a series where I write about my infertility, but then that's a really personal topic for me because I want to talk about my feelings about it, how I've dealt with it, how my marriage is better than ever because of it, etc. but is all of that appropriate for my blog? And then I have this other topic that I want to talk about (it's something very few people know about), but it's even more personal than infertility. I think that this topic needs to be talked about because maybe I can help someone who has been through it...

And then I want to do creative DIY posts and talk about other awesome artists. I want to talk about all the fun things I make to keep my creative juices flowing. I want to talk about how I was able to quit my "day job" and do my handmade business full time (you can do it too!). I want to talk about nail polish and how I just got these awesome bangs and everyone keeps telling me how they make me younger (what???). I want to just pour my heart and soul into this blog, but I'm scared to open up that much. Some of those topics are so scary to think about writing about them!

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Crafty DIY, nail polish, and getting bangs are not scary topics to write about... but infertility is. The scary topics make me feel anxious about writing anything else, so I don't write at all. BUT I want to change that. So this year, I'm going to open up and talk about the hard stuff, in addition to the fun stuff. It's going to be awesome.


Kristen said...

You're so cute. I wish we could've talked...we're going through some infertility issues as well and find myself crying A LOT. I hope you can find the strength you need to be able to open yourself up because I find comfort (and I'm sure others do as well) in knowing I'm not alone.
Cute jewelry too! ")

Duke and June said...

It is YOUR blog, write about whatever you want! Sometimes people need to hear about the serious issues in between pretty nail polish and earring fabric choices because that is real life. :) I look forward to reading!

Emily said...

Do you read blogs kind of like you want yours to be? Because I read a few different blogs that talk about infertility quite a bit. To them it is kind of normal to write about it, although there is an occasional post where they mention that it was a struggle to write about it. Some other friends have also written about postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, abuse, and a couple have been about major health stuff.

All this to say that if you want to feel bold, maybe it would help to read other blogs by bold authors. Then sincere, open and honest blogs seem a little more normal instead of so daring.

Good luck with the new direction you're taking your blog!

Stephanie Lyons said...

I follow your blogs and I'd love to read about all of the things you mentioned. ;)

yours truly dear said...

I've always felt more positive when sharing personal things, and have gotten great feedback from others. Those who are going through it found comfort and commonality, and those who weren't going through it gained understanding and appreciation for the situation. I understand it can feel vulnerable, but it can also feel empowering. Good luck, I'm looking forward to reading more from you :) Also, I love nail polish so I'm all for that!