One of my New Year's resolutions this year is to update my blog at least once a week. Well, now it's almost Valentines Day and I'm just getting to it... oops! I can start that one now, right?
Why have I neglected my blog? Anxiety. I take medication for that, but apparently it doesn't help everything (don't you wish that there was a magic pill that would just make everything better? I do).
So why do I have this anxiety about my blog? Well, I want to do a series where I write about my infertility, but then that's a really personal topic for me because I want to talk about my feelings about it, how I've dealt with it, how my marriage is better than ever because of it, etc. but is all of that appropriate for my blog? And then I have this other topic that I want to talk about (it's something very few people know about), but it's even more personal than infertility. I think that this topic needs to be talked about because maybe I can help someone who has been through it...
And then I want to do creative DIY posts and talk about other awesome artists. I want to talk about all the fun things I make to keep my creative juices flowing. I want to talk about how I was able to quit my "day job" and do my handmade business full time (you can do it too!). I want to talk about nail polish and how I just got these awesome bangs and everyone keeps telling me how they make me younger (what???). I want to just pour my heart and soul into this blog, but I'm scared to open up that much. Some of those topics are so scary to think about writing about them!
Anyone know what I'm talking about? Crafty DIY, nail polish, and getting bangs are not scary topics to write about... but infertility is. The scary topics make me feel anxious about writing anything else, so I don't write at all. BUT I want to change that. So this year, I'm going to open up and talk about the hard stuff, in addition to the fun stuff. It's going to be awesome.